it's been almost 5 weeks since antonio was born and motherhood is amazing! every day i love my son more and more and i love watching how he's already growing into his own little person. i admit, it was much tougher at the beginning than i thought it'd be, but it is more than worth it. every day antonio is alert a little more, smiles a little more, looks right at me a little more. i don't think there are enough words to describe how being a mother makes you feel. and i have to admit, one of my favorite things is the feeling i get when all he wants is to be held, but only by me. it's like some sort of mommy superpower, the ability to be the only one who can calm him, to be the only one he wants sometimes. i revel in every moment of it.