superstitious and stupid sunday laws

i take the blame as being the one solely responsible for the redskins losing this past sunday. i did not buy the lucky beer, pacifica. i was so mad at myself because i remembered on sunday morning that i didn't buy any pacifica the day before and because of the sunday laws here in georgia, i couldn't buy it yesterday. i was nervous all day because i knew they would lose because of it. and sure enough they did, and it was an UGLY loss. 21 unanswered points. ugh.

andres makes fun of me for being so superstitious during football games. i try to explain that that's how it was when we were growing up, and now we're all like that. like last season, my nephew was "made" to watch the redksins because he was a lucky charm. or one super bowl year, my dad kept making my mom go upstairs because she would bring them luck if she wasn't watching and he would just pound on the ceiling in the basement to let her know that something good had happened (as if she couldn't tell from the shouts). and the sad thing is, it seems like the redskins can only do well if antonio is napping. i may be very superstitious, but i don't think i could go as far as to make my 4 month old son take a nap just so that my team wins. or could i...

the shepherd and her sheep

as annoying as all the licking is, i love that cornflower loves antonio. she looks after him as if she were tending to her flock. when she hears him on the monitor, she usually beats us upstairs to his room. when he cries, she whimpers. she sleeps in his room, as if to keep him protected. i know that, someday, antonio and cornflower will be the best of friends and they'll spend hours delighting in each other's company. i just wish i didn't have to make so many trips to antonio's room in the middle of the night only to find that it's just the dog.

crazy hormones

pregnant or breastfeeding moms should not watch the last of the mohicans. my goodness, talk about a sobfest. i think i may need to redo my make-up this morning. and the thing is, i've seen this movie about a hundred times!!

the best part of waking up...

some mornings antonio sleeps in bed with me after his 5:00 feeding. one of my favorite things about it is when i wake up and watch him sleep for a little. and then he slowly wakes up, looks right at me, and gives me a huge smile, as if to say "good morning mami!". makes my heart melt every day.

careful what you wish for

when antonio was born there were moments where i wished he were older and sleeping through the night. but now he is older and sleeping through the night and i'm wishing for those first few days home from the hospital when he was so tiny. we started putting him in his crib in his room over the weekend and i think it's been harder on me than on him. i even slept on the floor of his room the first night. i know he's just across the hall, but after having him sleep by my bedside, and sometimes in my arms in my bed, he seems so far away. he's growing too fast! before i know it he'll be starting his first day of school, leaving for college, getting married and having kids of his own.

i completely understand how some people can have such large families. i went to visit my coworker in the hospital last week as she just had her baby, and it really hit me how much i miss being pregnant and the whole experience of giving birth. there's something about the newness of a newborn. the exhiliration of meeting your child after 10 months of waiting. i don't think there is anything that can replicate that feeling, i don't even know how to describe it. it's such a wonderful feeling and is almost addictive. almost makes me want to start trying to have another one already.

hail to the redskins!!!

they won!!! of course with the win comes the torture of actually having to watch. fortunately, here in atlanta i only had to sit through the last 10 minutes of the game, including overtime. that was enough for us. poor antonio, he's going to have to get used to it too. poor baby was asleep in my arms and when they almost scored on the last play of the game to win i jumped off the couch and yelled. antonio woke up scared and started crying, i felt so bad. andres may forbid me for holding antonio during games, he actually thought i was going to throw him (i was NOT). it actually hurt to hold in my yells/cheers so as to not wake up antonio a second time. it's going to be a looonnng season.

Ansley Park

Today at lunch I went walking and found a lovely pocket park hidden by trees. Dappled in shade, it has little cascades that empty into two pools of water. The flowers reach out past the rocks to let their reflections play along the water's rippling surface.

futile

i give up. i am constantly trying to keep cornflower from licking antonio. i don't see what the point is though. i turned away for a moment while antonio was in his bouncer. cornflower seized the opportunity of course and the look of sheer joy on my son's face when i turned back and found the dog licking his face was priceless.

it's official

antonio was finally baptized two weeks ago on August 25, 2007. deacon bob did a wonderful job with the ceremony and made it extra special by allowing my niece and nephew to help. it was so wonderful to have our family and close friends there. every person there i know will (and already has) play an important part in our son's life, so i felt so blessed that they could be there the day antonio officially joined the church.

i wondered at what God was telling antonio as he held his head up and was attentive throughout the ceremony, seemingly hanging on every word of deacon bob. i know that angels were whispering in his ears.