what am i turning into?!

my belly is starting to get so big that i have a hard time kneeling during mass without my belly getting in the way. it's super uncomfortable because my belly is getting squished against the missalettes. so i've become one of those people that keep their butt on the seat while they're kneeling. i hate it!! years of catholic school have made that one of my biggest pet peeves (i won't go into girls wearing shorts/skirts with "juicy" on the butt. yes, there are girls that wear that to church. i know. like i said, don't get me started). i know my half sit-half kneel is for a "good" reason, but i just can't get over it. look what i've become!!